Monday, May 29, 2006

What kind of home do I want to live in today? I ask myself that question every day. There's that saying, "When Mom's not happy, no one is". I used to think that statement was about control. "If Mom's not happy, she CAN and WILL use her power to make your life unhappy too". I really hated seeing those T-Shirts and bumper stickers. Now, I remind myself of it every day. However, now I use a slightly different saying:

"If Mom's not at peace and has no joy, it will be hard for anyone else to have it".

I accept that as the mother, wife, and CEO of this house, I am the heart and soul of it. My mood and disposition affects everyone.

My human nature wants to let my emotions rule over me sometimes, then I ask Jesus to help me lay down my pride. To help me to (in the words of Bishop Desmond Tutu) "be a wounded healer and not an arrogant victim". That's the beautiful thing about Christianity, the hardest obsticle to peace is admitting to oneself that we need God and his healing touch. Once the weakness is exposed, accepting and giving God's grace is a beautiful relief.